The Paradox of a “Brutiful Life”- How Joy and Pain Can Exist Simultaneously
What does JOY look like in the midst of sacrifice?
When I entered my forties, I faced a significant crossroads in my life. I had two incredibly strong desires in my heart, and I knew that I only had the energy, emotional and spiritual resources to pursue one of them….
Seminary or Motherhood?
My husband and I had already suffered the loss of three pregnancies. I had always just assumed that I would be a mother. I spent my entire adult life caring for the children of others. There were many reasons why I had not actively pursued motherhood until my 30s, the main reason being that I didn’t get married until I was 33. This is not a judgment against anyone who decides to have a child on their own. I think that is wonderful — but it wasn’t on my radar at the time. I had been mostly working towards completing my education, and trying to pay for it myself. That had consumed the larger part of my energy and resources in my twenies and into my thirties. So financially — having a child on my own would not even have been on my radar.
